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I was patient
Really, I'd stopped trying
Sat on the sidelines
Laughed with my friends
Convinced myself that I didn't need it
That I didn't care
And then ...
There she was
And it was almost immediate
I didn't recognize it
Because maybe I'd never really had it
Did it start in my chest?
And was it her smile?
I was scared of it
Scared of her
Because I knew what it meant
And I wanted not to care
I fought it
And lost to it
And for a year
She was mine
But it's never quite fair
And it slipped through my fingers
And then she was gone
And I cried for her
And hated them
Now that it's left me
I know I'm still waiting
I know I still care
I want it to stop
But when does it ever do what you want?
Sometimes I wish I'd never had it
But mostly I wish
That I still had her.
Really, I'd stopped trying
Sat on the sidelines
Laughed with my friends
Convinced myself that I didn't need it
That I didn't care
And then ...
There she was
And it was almost immediate
I didn't recognize it
Because maybe I'd never really had it
Did it start in my chest?
And was it her smile?
I was scared of it
Scared of her
Because I knew what it meant
And I wanted not to care
I fought it
And lost to it
And for a year
She was mine
But it's never quite fair
And it slipped through my fingers
And then she was gone
And I cried for her
And hated them
Now that it's left me
I know I'm still waiting
I know I still care
I want it to stop
But when does it ever do what you want?
Sometimes I wish I'd never had it
But mostly I wish
That I still had her.
Literature
Gender Identity Disorder
You've seemed to notice my sudden depression
Have you asked me anything about it?
To you it's teenage hormones
Oh, have we even talked about it?
Could it be something more?
Why cant we have a discussion?
I've got a little secret,
Hiding deep inside of me
I'm not just your daughter
I'm not really just a girl
You could say, I'm a bit of a boy
Gender Identity Disorder
There have been so many signs
I'm trying to change, for the better
It'd finally make me happy
Sure, I have other problems too
This one really needs to be addressed
Can't we come to terms?
There are parts of me you wouldn't understand
Maybe you just aren't very open min
Literature
Gay? Who? Me.
Are you gay?
The question at first startled me.
Speechless, unsure what I could say.
Are you gay?
The second time it was asked and I was silent
I had heard it before, but just earlier that day.
Are you gay?
Each time it was asked it filled me with shock.
What did it matter either way?
Are you gay?
When it was asked for the last time, I was at a loss.
Should I lie or lay in the bed I had made?
I am gay.
Maybe I am too young to know,
But this is what my heart wills me to say.
I am gay.
Maybe it is foolish to say so,
Yet it would be true to this day.
I am gay.
There can be hate or they can embrace.
I won't waver either way.
Literature
The L Word
That feeling you get in the pit of your stomach when she laughs.
That word you can't get up the guts to say out loud.
That 4 letter fire starter, butterfly-net-turnover, opening of the floor beneath you.
That silly feeling of want, wanting her, tickling you, kissing you, holding your hand.
That little thing we all search the world for.
That thing is called Love.
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Then again ... Does wishing ever get you anywhere...?
This style is very, very different from the rest of my poems, but that's because I tried to write in the style of ~Tea-andBiscuits because I thought her poem "The L Word" [link] had some powerful emotions in it and she was gracious enough to let me write a companion piece.
It's not as good as the original, so you should check hers out: again
And also the rest of her gallery ^^ which is here
This style is very, very different from the rest of my poems, but that's because I tried to write in the style of ~Tea-andBiscuits because I thought her poem "The L Word" [link] had some powerful emotions in it and she was gracious enough to let me write a companion piece.
It's not as good as the original, so you should check hers out: again
And also the rest of her gallery ^^ which is here
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